Gwendolyn Lloyd

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Basic Information
Name: Gwendolyn Lloyd
Aliases: Gwen, Lyn, The Bleating Bleaker
Gender: Female
Race: Tiefling
Age: 26
Profession: Charity worker, healer, planeswalker.
Languages: Common, Infernal, Abyssal
Accent: <does your character have different kind of accent?> Physical Information
Height: <your characters height>
Weight: <your characters weight>
Body build: Curvaceous and buxom. Despite her eating habits and looks, Gwen frequently exercises her endurance a coordination; ball toss (with a lightweight ball) and jump ropes are her personal favorites.
Skin type: Smooth and symmetrical.
Hair style: Side ponytail, with low bangs and side tails to frame her face.
Scars: None. Frequently uses curative magic to get rid of them.
Tattoos: <does your character have tattoos?> Â Â Colouring:
  • Hair: Black
  • Eyes: Molten gold, slowly shifting inwards to her to her goat-like pupil.
  • Skin: Super pale.
Mental Information
Alignment: Chaotic Neutral
Philosophy: Nothing makes sense. She feels like a prisoner in a universe who views mortals as tokens, currency, or resources. Worst yet, other mortals often abuse their fellow mortals in a similar manner. She holds a deeply-seated hatred towards society and its nonsense, but feels entirely impotent in bringing change. Historically, revolutions, be they violent or calm revolutions, have never once brought lasting change to the state of societies and the ‘verse. The status quo is suffering, and versus the immensity of the Multiverse, of society, of the habitus people wrap themselves in and perpetuate, she feels – and is – completely powerless to affect change in any meaningful manner. She knows this cycle won’t stop because of her efforts, nor anybody else’s. It hasn’t before, why would it change now? This culminates in despair and hopelessness.

She surrounds herself in pretty things, such as toys, clothes and art, uses language she perceives as pretty, and tries to make people smile with her creations and actions, since the pretty things help her cope. If she can, through her actions, give somebody hope, a way out from the kind of misery she feels herself, she will be inclined to try and nudge them out from that descending spiral.

Deity/Beliefs: She used to believe primarily in Boldrei, of The Sovereign Host. The goddess of Hall and Hearth. She yearned to feel at home and at peace somewhere. She lost this supplicating faith in her teens.

Nowadays, nothingness. She’ll try to leave things better than when she found them, since causing harm would be even more meaningless in the grand scheme of things. “Everything will be okay,” “Things will get better,” and all those canned, artificial lines people tell themselves and others to feel better about life are things she tries to avoid repeating. She lies about herself, for reality hurts. But she tells people the truth amid societies built on fakeness, for reality hurts all the more when one realizes they’ve been lied to about their existence.

Personality:
  • Masks: Those who suffer internally always wear masks. A practiced, fake smile. “I’m just tired today,” and such lies. Most people aren’t ready, or don’t care, to listen and see reality for what it is. Unwilling listeners are thus an exercise in pointlessness.
  • Fragile/Broken: Not everything will bring her to tears, but her emotional state can break down seemingly without reason. A lifetime of psychological, and sometimes physical pain has caused her wounds that simply won’t heal. Her mood varies day to day, hour to hour, from playful, to lethargic abandonment, to seeking isolation.
  • Melancholy/Fatalistic: Oh, what’s the sodding point… Hopelessness. She might use the word “hope” in her spoken language, but to her it’s just a pretty word that bring passing comfort. There’s no doubt in her mind that somebody, at some point, will find a reason to destroy what good she tries to spread in this rotten existence. People always find reasons to be hateful. This hopelessness translates into feeling powerless, resentment, and hate of her own.
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Additional Information
Gear: A custom pair of gloves enchanted by Saiyuu.
Jewelry: A necklace, which she almost always wears, set with a barely-blue gem.
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Habbits/hobbies: Toymaking (Professionally)
General Health: In good health. Physically, anyway.
Favorite Drink: Water, hot cocoa (with plenty of milk or cream), lightly sweetened cold tea, mixed coffee (dislikes coffee unless there’s something else with it)
Weaknesses:
  • Fatalistic/Broken: It goes without saying that her belief that her efforts are in vain. Combined with her sensitivity, emotions, and the fact she is a Bleaker, she is inevitably on a downward spiral. Sometimes that means she will delay matters to another day. Sometimes that means she will lay curled up somewhere, unable to bring herself to do anything at all. But most of all, despite helping others and working on charitable causes, she doesn’t truly believe it’ll help.
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