L The Unexposed

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*Explicitron2000
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Posted by *Explicitron2000 »


((DISCLAIMER: This is not going to be a journal for the faintest readers. It will deal with dark subjects and adult content. If such things are not for you, then read no further. But you have been warned!

Also no metagaming! Sure she's a little off in game and has a scent, but so do Dustmen and a lot of people. I can come up plausible reason for almost any made up reason within Sigil you come up with, so don't try it. Keep it fair, I'll keep it fair. Everyone has more fun!

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[align=center]Do you still remember when they thought you sane?[/align]


You're not real she thought. But it was a voice that kept coming back over and over again. At least this time it didn't obscure her vision with anything unreal... or did it? Would she know if the corpse she was dissecting wasn't infact part of her imagination? Her bloodied right hand stopped with the scalpel cut midway to consider it. Lifting her left one to look down at it. The wooden palm soaked in blood, still stiff fingers having difficulty to replace normal hands... still it could not be helped.

[align=center]Of course I am real. I have always been with you, have I not?[/align]

She had no ready retort. Looking at the damp sewer-esque surrounding she was using to cut open the poor goblin shaman that had come across her path, and not even for a moment had she spent to give it any form of sympathy or empathy. She thought once more No, you're not real. No one else can hear you either. she heard an amused cackle. Which infuriated her more as she thought Besides I don't need you, just leave me alone.

[align=center]Oh but you do need me. Was it not my idea to look for the origin inside the bodies?[/align] the voice savored her disgruntled admittance, or did it? It was difficult for her to know really [align=center]Besides, the others just don't know how to listen. Unlike you, they do not show potential.[/align]

Of course the voice was right, it had persuaded her to look for how to dissect the parts which makes them able to do magic and use her alchemy to brew raw magic essence to use with her gloves. It was always messy and she still wasted a lot of the bodies to achieve it. Fine... she thought, but this is the last one, I don't want to do this anymore.

[align=center]Of course my darling. Just like the last one. And the one before that. Face it, you're good at it, and it makes you more powerful. Besides, it's only the spellcasters... they're the reason why you're in that condition anyway.[/align]

This time she snapped out loud "Shut up! Just shut up!" and the voice cackled. As her focus was drawn within she failed to notice the right hand with the scalpel kept cutting deeper on, it was hard for her to feel things with the hands. After all, they were made of wood and only listened to her mental commands so far. This caused her to curse inwardly more.

[align=center]Careful now, don't waste it. Here... let me help you.[/align]

The goblin corpses hand moved to pull the hand back, it couldn't have done it as it was dead and struct by rigor mortis. Helping L to cut itself steadily. Of course none of this truly happened, and the absurdity of it didn't strike peculiar to her at all. It was just another day in her screwed up life, and while she hated the voice... she also appreciated the help it was giving her.

After the gruesome task was done, two small vials worth of what she dubbed "magic juice" had been extracted. She slotted the fresh vials into her glowing gloves which each had three slots available.

[align=center]I think we're ready to try something bigger next. First that Hiver mage, now goblins? We're scraping dirt here... we can do better.[/align]

Something twisted her stomach. Perhaps it was the iron scent of the blood fresh in the air, perhaps the thought of the murder a couple of weeks back. But then, she had not heard anything about it. However the voice was definitely right, the goblins were disgusting and smelly creatures, she would rather not keep cutting them if she could avoid it. Okay... but just this once. she thought.

[align=center]Of course my darling, just this once...[/align]
*Explicitron2000
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Posted by *Explicitron2000 »


[align=center]Why didn't you tell her the truth?[/align]

That damned voice, again grasping on her weakest points to break her. It was sometimes just so very aggravating, and it was because the voice was right. It almost always turned out to be correct. No, she wasn't going to grant the voice a reply. It was the right choice in the long run.

[align=center]All she wanted was for you to show that you cared, and you casted her aside. What are you so afraid of? Her or yourself?[/align]

No more could she resist the urge to answer, the voice knew her too well. I'm not afraid of myself, you dolt. she thought, which was technically true even if there was a nagging self-loathing side to her. I'm just... she's better off staying away.

[align=center]Aren't you tired of being alone already? And I know it's you who you are afraid of in this.[/align]

I'm not afraid of myself! she insisted in her thoughts. It's you! It's always you! You would hurt her sooner or later! the thoughts nearly blurted out externally, but walking through the streets she had just enough mental discipline to avoid it, her body language alas did still make her seem quirky to others. The voice chuckled at that outburst.

[align=center]Afraid of me? What could I possibly do to her? Besides it was you hurting her. I have never done anything wrong, your hands however are mighty bloody... and you enjoy it. I've seen your thoughts when you perform your rituals. It's not normal.[/align]

The words hurt her deep, concealing her already masked face behind the artificial wooden hands, she exclaimed with her wish for cease and desist audibly. Cagers giving her the look of barmy, rightfully so. "Shut up! Just shut up and leave me alone!" What frightened her the most was that the voice as of course right, infuriatingly so, as usual. It had never done strictly anything, she had... and she had enjoyed it at times, and that's what she hated most in herself.

[align=center]Come now dear, don't get over dramatic about this. I just don't want to see you so lonely... and do remember what happened last time I left you alone. If that's what you really wish, I will leave you alone again...[/align]

It took her some time to calm down to even think rationally enough. Again the voice was not incorrect, since the voice had left her once for a week. At the time she had always wanted to be left alone, and then she had been. Utterly alone. While the voice had its annoying moments, it had also always been there for her. The devils advocate, telling her how things were even if she was too afraid to admit it. A brother that she never had, with whom she argued like a true sibling would. This caused her to calm down and think more rationally. No... don't leave. She didn't want to be alone after all. What should I do then? she thought.

[align=center]Say you're sorry, buy something nice as an apology.[/align]

She probably hates me... what if I can't control myself? already thinking ahead. And instead of granting an answer, a vivid image of the person appeared right before her, causing her to stop on her steps. The figure looking to her over their shoulder, eyes casting judgement. A painful transformation into a tree through a brutally slow and goreish way, but she barely noticed nothing except the relentless blaming eyes.



Before she knew, she was already halfway to Bazaar browsing for something to buy. Though the sight of the delusion burned deep into fresh memory, though attempted to be shaken away.
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